I wrote this post in July of 2018—a lifetime ago. And yet, I wanted to share this one because I still find the waters of business to be tricky to navigate. Maybe you can relate. 💙
There is no real method to my madness when it comes to sharing my writing and certainly no master plan. I go on feel. I run on emotion. Motivation…where’d you go?
My emotional world is taking up a lot of space these days. I’m kinda sick of saying I’m ‘healing,’ but well, I am. It’s a luxury, isn’t it? If I lived almost anywhere else in this world, I’d be ‘surviving.’ There would be no therapy, no time spent writing and musing, no hikes with a good friend, or date nights with my husband. My pure focus would be to put food in the bellies of myself and my babies.
Yesterday, my web person (who is also one of my closest friends) discovered that the contact form on my website is not working. More than that, it has not been working for the past seven months. This means I’ve lost at least a dozen potential clients. I mean, I’d been wondering why it had been so quiet, but I was so focused on the reason being *me* and where *I* was at that I didn’t even consider looking at such a simple solution.
I’m not a businesswoman. I am a writer and a creative. And while I may have many luxuries, I don’t have the luxury of only being the latter if I’m to have any modicum of success. So, while I intend to be patient with myself as I move through these next few months, I also need to acknowledge that I have lost my ambition, and I need to find it. I will find it. It lies just beyond this next phase of healing and just beyond *me*.
I can write beautiful words and hold a vision in my mind, however loosely, of where I want my writing to land and how many hands I wish to hold it. As I surrender, I am guided. I no longer stand in my own way. I will step back and let something higher lead the way. The focus is on kindness, beauty, sharing, and uplifting.
Love, thy Will be done.
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