Silence Teaches Too

Silence Teaches Too

The talking masks the racing thoughts in my mind, or so I think.  I talk loud and fast when I am not at peace.  For fear of the silence, I speak.  To drown out the truth, I talk. I want to teach and to learn, but then I remember: Silence teaches too. I resist it.  I...
On My Way Home

On My Way Home

  Over and over again I see…who could there be but me?  Who else could change my life, my way of being, of seeing?  How could I look to someone else to do that for me? No, no…it is me and that is both daunting and empowering.  I feel unprepared and...
Not Quite Awake

Not Quite Awake

Despite many things having remained the same, my life looks somehow different to me now.  There is a light, a gentle laughter and a knowledge underneath it all.  This is serious business I am undertaking and yet I’m not taking myself seriously.  I am committed...
Dream Come True

Dream Come True

I have dreams for myself.  I see them in my mind’s eye: bright, broad and big.  There I am special.  There I have it all.  And in the meantime I read and I listen.  I pray and I surrender.  All of this leads me on…it leads me somewhere. There is a...
I Can’t Ignore What Heals Me

I Can’t Ignore What Heals Me

I have some old ways of coping that are not so healthy. They sit in the back of my mind dusty and neglected. They remain that way until I have a night like I did last night… Yes, it was a tough one. Overwhelmed, lonely, mind racing, disconnected and not wanting...
Starting Over

Starting Over

Back to Square One…well maybe Square Three.  I have decided to start over… In November of 2010 I began “A Course in Weight Loss” by Marianne Williamson.  It’s 21 Spiritual Lessons for Surrendering Your Weight Forever.  I admit to you all...
Off We Go

Off We Go

I can feel your silent tug at me.  I know it’s you.  You whisper: “What about me?” and I say: “I take you with me.  No matter where I go or what I do, I take you with me.”  It may seem as though I have become a gathering storm of...
What Love Looks Like

What Love Looks Like

I’ll admit it.  These past few weeks I have done myself wrong.  I have left my soul malnourished, heavy and dark.  I have not fed it properly.  I have denied it love and light. That’s what unforgiveness does. I’ll tell the truth.  I’ve put up a...
Out Beyond The Forest

Out Beyond The Forest

Out beyond the forest is a clearing.  It’s not easy to get there, especially in the dark, but it beckons me.  I hear it call.  In this clearing there is light and this light reflects off of every possible surface.  It is nearly blinding, and yet so deliciously...
A Mother’s Time

A Mother’s Time

“I’m so happy already!” she says as she looks up at me with those wide, blue and sparkling eyes.  We are off on an adventure!  We are off to explore the treasures of small island in Northern Ontario.  Off we go… And it’s so simple to...
I Talk to Angels

I Talk to Angels

  I used to make stuff up a lot as a child.  I wore that look of longing.  Longing for love…longing for acceptance as a child. I used to lie about what I liked as a child.  I would change my tastes to suit.  To suit what you liked…what you liked about me...
I Didn’t Listen To My Body

I Didn’t Listen To My Body

  I didn’t listen to my body.  When it said “Move”, I said “Hush, I’m too tired”.  I wanted comfort and nothingness…a place without challenge. I didn’t listen to my body.  When it said “Enough”, I said...