Soaking Up Secrets

Soaking Up Secrets

We sat warming our hands on our mugs of lemon ginger tea in silence. She was waiting, once again, for me to speak first. Speaking has never been my strong suit. I feel enough for a village, but to speak about my feelings takes a lot of effort. I can, however, write...
What Happened

What Happened

We sipped lemon water in plastic Muskoka chairs at the side of my house, a little stone patio shaded by large maples and my neighbour’s garage. My friend had stopped by in the middle of a lazy afternoon. My kids were with their father and I had taken a break...
Hug the Mother

Hug the Mother

I waited for my friend on her front step while she spoke to a neighbour on the sidewalk in front of me. I could hear pieces of conversation depending on how strongly the wind blew. And the breeze was a blessing. Heat had settled in. The sun was nearly a summer...
Faith

Faith

This is where the faith comes in. In the cackling whispers of doubt where all you do is dumb, dim, fruitless. You can do this. You can loosen your grip, and you won’t trip. We won’t let you. This is where the faith comes in. When the path ahead is...
This Is the Way I Move

This Is the Way I Move

So it’s Valentine’s Day and there will be a whole whack of people telling you that you should, at all costs, learn to love yourself first. Well folks, I agree. And I’m workin’ on it. I was giving a reading to a client the other day and a...
Welcome Here.

Welcome Here.

Come to me with secrets, with quiet guilty whispers, head hung low, shuffling feet. Come to me with stifled sobs, with naked shame, and white teeth that bite your bottom lip. Come to me. Sweep your hair from your eyes, steeple your hands in request. Be willing....
For You I’d Wait

For You I’d Wait

This past year and a half has been tough. My husband and I have been to hell and back. We’re still making random visits… I won’t get into the nitty gritty at this point. Suffice it to say it has been the most difficult period of my life. I’m...
There is No Enemy

There is No Enemy

  It’s so easy to lay blame sometimes, isn’t it?  It’s addictive even.  To take all the hurt, the guilt and the shame and just throw it out.  Let it land where it may.  Take a look, pick the easiest target and start pointing fingers. It’s...
Just Be…On Vacation

Just Be…On Vacation

It’s so tempting to make everything I do SO important.  I like feeling needed…required.  And the thought that I could go away for days, maybe even weeks at a time and not be missed is troubling to me.  It makes me panic. There must be things in this world...
Saved by the Voice of the Night

Saved by the Voice of the Night

With a mind that moves so quickly, timid, running scared. I have little time to act. To choose or despair. There is a tiny speck of time, a mere moment for this mission. And I can rise up, let go and listen. I can learn, remember and I can surrender all. It takes but...
My First Anniversary

My First Anniversary

I had almost forgotten that tomorrow, June 13th, is a special day.  Tomorrow is my anniversary.  Tomorrow will mean that I have not binged or purged for one full year. I expected to feel thrilled by this, but I don’t. Last summer, as I tallied up the days and...