Leaving Pain Behind

Leaving Pain Behind

Slowly, slowly I am leaving pain behind. Knowing, knowing it was always in my mind. Last night I attended my 12-Step meeting. I had not been in a long time, but a client cancelled and I took it as a sign to get myself there, sit down and listen. It was powerful and...
Laugh It Up

Laugh It Up

Each time I come here to write about food and body stuff, I am so tempted to tell you all that I’ve found it. I’ve found the cure-all, the epiphany, the line in the sand. Damnit. I haven’t. And then I start to think: am I really still writing about...
With Hands Shaking

With Hands Shaking

I was so incredibly close to a binge last week.  I was at the centre.  The end of the road for problems, tasks, help and need- it all seemed to point to me.  My shoulders fell beneath the weight. I panicked and my mind narrowed, focusing on the old- too afraid of the...
This Body

This Body

They keep telling me to love my body. They make it sound so easy. And there were times when I did. There were times I would see the curve of my hip and smile. Or see my own eyes light up and feel the joy in that. There were times… I kept hearing I should love my body....
I Lost 10lbs. of Guilt

I Lost 10lbs. of Guilt

Holy hell it’s back.  It crept back into my life like a poisonous spider plotting and spinning its web of lies and trapping me just when I thought I had flown away.  This fear…the fear that keeps me here.  This fear of being hungry, of being alone and...
If I’m Not Careful

If I’m Not Careful

If I’m not careful I could slip and fall I could fall backwards and forget. I could forget how to just be, if I’m not careful. I could start to believe again that I can do this on my own that I don’t need help that I know all I need to know. I could,...
I See You

I See You

 I only wish I saw it sooner… Sometimes I’ll ask my friends if I’m *too* honest in my blog posts.  It is posts like Mia’s that remind me there’s no such thing.  We are all participants in the human experience and all that is contained...
Where They Know My Name

Where They Know My Name

My intuition whispered “Go.” and I’m so glad I listened.  This past Monday night I attended my first 12-step meeting.  The room was quiet and unassuming, but the energy was strong.  People are there to heal.  They are there to admit that they cannot...