Leaving Pain Behind

Leaving Pain Behind

Slowly, slowly I am leaving pain behind. Knowing, knowing it was always in my mind. Last night I attended my 12-Step meeting. I had not been in a long time, but a client cancelled and I took it as a sign to get myself there, sit down and listen. It was powerful and...
Laugh It Up

Laugh It Up

Each time I come here to write about food and body stuff, I am so tempted to tell you all that I’ve found it. I’ve found the cure-all, the epiphany, the line in the sand. Damnit. I haven’t. And then I start to think: am I really still writing about...
My First Anniversary

My First Anniversary

I had almost forgotten that tomorrow, June 13th, is a special day.  Tomorrow is my anniversary.  Tomorrow will mean that I have not binged or purged for one full year. I expected to feel thrilled by this, but I don’t. Last summer, as I tallied up the days and...
This Body

This Body

They keep telling me to love my body. They make it sound so easy. And there were times when I did. There were times I would see the curve of my hip and smile. Or see my own eyes light up and feel the joy in that. There were times… I kept hearing I should love my body....
I See You

I See You

 I only wish I saw it sooner… Sometimes I’ll ask my friends if I’m *too* honest in my blog posts.  It is posts like Mia’s that remind me there’s no such thing.  We are all participants in the human experience and all that is contained...
Where They Know My Name

Where They Know My Name

My intuition whispered “Go.” and I’m so glad I listened.  This past Monday night I attended my first 12-step meeting.  The room was quiet and unassuming, but the energy was strong.  People are there to heal.  They are there to admit that they cannot...
Starting Over

Starting Over

Back to Square One…well maybe Square Three.  I have decided to start over… In November of 2010 I began “A Course in Weight Loss” by Marianne Williamson.  It’s 21 Spiritual Lessons for Surrendering Your Weight Forever.  I admit to you all...
I Did a Bad, Bad Thing.

I Did a Bad, Bad Thing.

I carry with me weight unneeded.  This weight in the literal and metaphorical sense, I carry.  It surrounds me, envelops me and tricks me into thinking it is a part of me.  It is not. This weight wants to keep me busy.  It wants to keep me thinking I have to lose...
I Didn’t Listen To My Body

I Didn’t Listen To My Body

  I didn’t listen to my body.  When it said “Move”, I said “Hush, I’m too tired”.  I wanted comfort and nothingness…a place without challenge. I didn’t listen to my body.  When it said “Enough”, I said...