The Sigh and The Bliss

The Sigh and The Bliss

this crater of longing is endless; it’s madness. I look to you to fill it. be sane for me, be peace, be love. I look to you to complement me. be my other half, my saviour, my light. because this pit in my stomach is aching; it’s taking me down. and I want...
Another Peak to Climb

Another Peak to Climb

  Just when I think I’ve climbed the mountain, the clouds part to reveal another peak. But I want to sleep. I want to hide. I want to retreat into my cave of comfort and pretend: there is no change, no challenge, no fire-breathing dragon at my back....
Recommitting to Love

Recommitting to Love

I didn’t want to hear it. My brother sent me a text: “Hug Noelle and Ivan extra tight tonight. CT is the worst I’ve ever seen.” “I don’t even want to know,” I texted back. But eventually I did. I took out my phone again and...
Love You

Love You

If I could tell him one thing, it would be this: be who you are, now.  I can tell him, but not without that lingering notion that I don’t really mean it. I can tell him, but not yet without the tears in my eyes. If I could say one last thing, it would be this:...
What I Really Want

What I Really Want

It all comes down to this: I want to be peaceful.  And from this there is no turning back.  I cannot say that I want success, romantic love, wealth or notoriety without feeling that nudge within that says “Really?  Is that what you really want?”  No.  I...
Where a Miracle is Born

Where a Miracle is Born

I can’t do this anymore.  I need help.  I’ll listen.  Come again, I will listen! You tell me none of it is real.  You say that only love is, so why does all of this hurt so much? It’s your belief in it that brings you pain.  That’s where it...
They Are So Near

They Are So Near

Oh my but they are so near!  All those who we claim to have lost are so close it would be hard to see where they end and we begin.  We know they are not bodies.  The bodies have gone, and yet the memory of who they are remains painfully fresh.  Who they are fills a...
How Compassion Feels

How Compassion Feels

I like how compassion feels.  I love the light within and around it.  I love the promise it holds…the unity that is implied. If compassion could speak, what would it say?  Perhaps it would stay quiet.  Yes, I think it would.  Compassion would silently smile and...
A Painless Life

A Painless Life

Here’s something I know for sure is true: when I am not doing what is in alignment with my talents and values I experience pain.  Sometimes it’s a dull ache in my gut and other times it’s a full-out tornado in my chest making me weep, tearing me up....
What Love Looks Like

What Love Looks Like

I’ll admit it.  These past few weeks I have done myself wrong.  I have left my soul malnourished, heavy and dark.  I have not fed it properly.  I have denied it love and light. That’s what unforgiveness does. I’ll tell the truth.  I’ve put up a...
I Talk to Angels

I Talk to Angels

  I used to make stuff up a lot as a child.  I wore that look of longing.  Longing for love…longing for acceptance as a child. I used to lie about what I liked as a child.  I would change my tastes to suit.  To suit what you liked…what you liked about...
I Am Not Broken

I Am Not Broken

  This body you see is not me.   I live without and within.  I am bigger than these breasts, these toes, these eyes.  And I am not broken. When I am able to just be, I shine with effortless ease.  When I am in fear, I shut down, stutter and retreat.  I become like a...