What Would You Tell Her?

What Would You Tell Her?

I was humbled by her presence. My beautiful friend wore pain in her every pore- the kind of pain that lived at the seat of your soul, but could spread like a virus if the right words were said. She was dejected and alone, having been cut-off and rejected by the one...
No More Waiting in the Wings

No More Waiting in the Wings

I have been tangled up with you for years in a very arms-length, don’t-get-too-close-to-me kind of way. Never have I felt worthy. Never have I felt safe. And this has been my own doing. It has been through my own unwillingness to open up, to be myself that I sit...
The Stories Heal Project

The Stories Heal Project

Today is Day One of The Stories Heal Project. Today I interview an incredible woman with an equally incredible story. It will be the first in a series of interviews as I work to compile her story into something meaningful, something transformative. The intention here...
Severed Ties

Severed Ties

There doesn’t have to be anger, resentment or frustration to be done with something. To be over it. To want out. When I heard my divorce was final I felt a weight lifting. An end. A severance. A death. I am not the woman I was four years ago. Not even close. My...
Going Back – A (Very) Short Story

Going Back – A (Very) Short Story

I followed her down the sandy laneway to the lake. The moon was full, thankfully, as it was our only light at one in the morning. She pretended not to know I was behind her, but I never left her alone on this day. It had been sixteen years, but this date would still...
I Don’t Want to Anymore

I Don’t Want to Anymore

My vulnerability makes me seem weak, I think- Makes me seem needy, perhaps. But all it is is honesty. All it is is truth. Because baby I used to lie like a rug in fear’s basement. I would insist, defend and gaslight myself into dusty corners. It was a shield for...
My Experience with John of God

My Experience with John of God

In early 2013, I received an email from my friend, G who absolutely loves John of God. “D- John of God is coming to Toronto!!! You must go!! OMG you must go see him! I would come but I’m going to be in Utah.” John of God is a spiritual medium and...
My Journey with ‘The Secret’

My Journey with ‘The Secret’

In 2008, my life was in turmoil. Pregnant with my second child, supporting a husband through a toxic and expensive lawsuit, trying desperately to advance my career in research to earn more money and caring for my toddler daughter- I was stressed to the max. I lived on...
It’s Not For Me to Say

It’s Not For Me to Say

It’s not for me to say what would make you feel better.  It’s not for me to decide how you should heal.  But I’ve seen him in my dreams and I know that he’s ok.  He’s better than ok; he’s with you, but that’s not for me to...
My All

My All

One day my solitude won’t feel like solitude at all It will be the sweet ever after I’ve been longing for- The peace of dropped expectations and the serenity of a love recalled. It will be the how and the why, The what and the whom. And though my eyes are...
What If We Told the Truth?

What If We Told the Truth?

What is this boundless insecurity that makes us do these awful things? To take an innocent situation and twist it in on itself? Who are we to look past reason straight through to insanity and run with it? Because why? Because we’re hurt? Because someone...
She Was So Pretty – A Short Story Serial Part III

She Was So Pretty – A Short Story Serial Part III

“Who keeps that much cash in a safe?” asked Ethan stupefied. It was a good question, but it wasn’t the right one. We sat around my wooden kitchen table, a gift from Serge that he had made in his workshop. At that moment his head was face down upon...